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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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Roller Coaster MindStuck on this
Roller coaster
Whirling
And twirling
Chaos in my head
I can't think straight

I scream with frustration
A sound heard by only me
Outside of my mind
I'm cool,
Calm,
And collected
You can't see the turmoil
That haunts me

I look like I'm happy
I smile and laugh
Along with everyone else
But inside
I'm pounding my fists on my skull
In frustration

Yelling at my brain
Shut up!
I can't get a moment of peace
Not even when I sleep

Spelling out my words
And typing them on an invisible keyboard
I hide my distress
And conceal my suffering
So that no one can see

Finally I tell all
Dropping the facade
Behind whi

Dreaming OfDreaming of
The moon lit night
Stars dancing in time
To Earth's heartbeat

Dreaming of
Your hand in mine
As we watch this show
In the dark of twilight

Dreaming of
A scene so beautiful
With snow white roses
Twirling in the sky

We join in
To this enchanting ball
Dreaming of
It never ending

Still we must wake
And go on with our lives
But inside we're asleep
Dreaming of
Our moon lit night
Dancing under the stars

Why It Is Bad To Live In The CloudsWhy is it bad
To be stuck in the clouds
Dreams are what drive us
And push us ahead

But if we're always dreaming
And thinking about nonsense
We won't have the time
To live in the present

Stuff that probably
Will never happen
Takes precedence over the now
Whenever we dream

So think about
Only this day
Only this hour
Pay attention
To the little details

The way the light looks
Streaming through your window
How you can see
The little dust particles
If you look closely enough

Don't close your eyes
Unless it's to feel
Only the wind
Or the sun on your face
And to hear the smile
In someone's voice
As they speak

Don't live

Wasting LifeSome people
Are grounded in the past
Stuck on "I should have"
And "Why didn't I"

They think of all those things
That they wish they did
While I daydream
About the things I hope
Will happen

I'm trapped in the future
Suspended in my fantasies
Not paying attention
To what goes on right now

"Live in the present"
They say
Oh how I wish
But my mind keeps going

Even as I stand still
Even as I lay here
Even as I sit in class
I'm somewhere else
Dreaming up a new world
Of what will happen
In my ideal scenarios

I'm a hopeless romantic
And in each dream
I find my perfect guy
But love never goes
The way you expect

See?
I'm do

SpinSlowly turning
Mind churning
Spinning down
Toward the ground

Pick up speed
Take the lead
Too fast
Way past

Missed the mark
In the dark
Can't stop
Fatal drop

Catch this soul
My heart you stole
Now a crash
Reduced to ash

You did not aid
Now you've paid
I'm lost to you
'Cause we're through

Don't try
This is goodbye
You cannot win
Down you spin

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8. Innocence

by ~PoemsPoet, Jun 29, 2012, 6:56:40 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

My "once upon a time"
Has come to an end
My innocence is gone
Never to return

This is no longer a fairytale,
A movie,
A book
There will be
No "happily ever after"
I am no longer
Naïve and blind

My snow white self
My angel wings
Have been splashed with ink
Filth
And
Mud

If I once was pure
That time has been lost
For my innocence has been taken
And will never come back

8. Innocenceby ~PoemsPoet

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Number 8 of the 100 themes poem. It's not very good, but I tried so don't bash on me too much. Thanks for reading! : D
-Love,
Anonymous

~HeartofaWriter Jun 29, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I think it's pretty good

. Not very happy, but good.

~PoemsPoet Jun 29, 2012 Student Writer

Thanks. : ) I didn't really think anyone would like this one. Guess I'm just too hard on myself : P

~HeartofaWriter Jun 29, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

We are our own best friends and worst enemies, all at the same time. That's what friends are for, to keep us from becoming more one than the other.

~PoemsPoet Jun 30, 2012 Student Writer

I like that.... haha. : ) and it's so true too!

~HeartofaWriter Jun 30, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

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